I continue to be inspired by everyone I meet along this journey to fight stigma. I was asked to show the first edition of my documentary last night, even though at this point, I am focused on the content of the second edition. As a creative director and artist, I am subject to all sorts of criticism. It's part of the job:) Part of my growth as an artist involves the consideration of this criticism. I am known to be very stubborn and strong willed, but I am working on this. A few of the attendees expressed some VERY good points. All of which I will take into deep consideration. There were parts of the film which show how mental illness can lead to suicide. I realize that I do not want my final film to dwell on this very unfortunate circumstance.
When I created the first edition, I was immersed in the reality that my brother had attempted suicide three times. My mind set at the time did not allow for too much hope and I was most likely dealing with my own depression. We were in the thick of my brother's psychosis. However, as he continues to improve and I continue to meet so many survivors, I am more focused on sending a positive message. Don't get me wrong, my first edition is full of positivity and I am happy with the outcome. But I have a unique task at hand. I must express my own personal views on this social issue while being a voice for millions. I would like to let everyone know that I am so excited about my second edition since it's message will be one of hope, courage and strength. I will do my best to make all of your proud.
Hi AC,
ReplyDeleteIt's interesting: a person might not want to take his life, he could consider suicide as a way to stop the voices. I know someone who did not want to end their life; they swallowed the pills because they couldn't take hearing the voices any more and wanted the voices to go away. So outsiders need to understand this kind of hopelessness that compels someone to consider suicide, when living 50 or 60 or 70 years with the symptoms seems like no alternative.
Chris
Well said Chris! It was very early on in my brothers experience with schizophrenia and at the time, he was off meds and suicide seemed like the only way. I was not angry at him because I understood his despair and knew I could not judge him. On the other hand, my family tried very hard to show him that recovery is an option. This illness does not come with a handbook but I know he will realize someday that he can have a life beyond this illness. That is all I hope for everyday.
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